Pain….. I’m hurting.
When I got into this I couldn’t have ever imagined coming to this point,
I never thought it was possible to love someone this much,to care about someone more than you even do yourself, to want to do everything imaginable make that person happy, because you care that much that their happiness makes you happy, to just want that person to be okay,
When I wake up she’s the first thing on my mind and when I go to sleep,the topic of my dreams,
I feel like every inch of me craves her,
I can’t even begin to describe the pain that I feel in my heart right now, the pain in my stomach, I never knew your soul could hurt until now….to know who I love, to have found that “one”, to have found the person that you believe with every ounce of courage is your soulmate, and to not be able to have that person.
To be angry as hell because it seems like everybody around you gets to be with the person that makes them happy,but you.
To love that person with everything that you have in yourself …I knew my heart could even give this much love….
I want nothing more than to wake up every morning and cook her breakfast,
I want to come home from work and say “honey I’m home”,I want to marry her, a physical ring could never describe how I feel but I still want to give her one,… I want to hold her when she not strong enough to hold herself up, I want to kiss away every tear because of the pain she experienced and didn’t deserve, she never deserved that,if I could fight very single person that did that to her,I hope that she knows I would.
I never want to be a person that hurts you. I want to fight for you. Even if I can’t have you I’ll always fight for you, I’ll try my best to protect you.
Even if we’re not together my feelings won’t change, because you only find what I found once in a lifetime. They say it’s “better to have loved and lost then to never loved at all” but they don’t understand the extent of pain afterwards…and never for one moment would I take back loving her. It changed me for the better and the worse.
I love her….I love her….I really genuinely love her…..I’ll always love her that won’t change, whether I’m with her or not. A part of me will forever be missing. She completes me….